i cant stop thinking about you, and its driving me crazy.
you have a
girlfriend, and shes really lucky to have you.. i just wish you were mine.
i wish i could understand you better.
i wish i knew your opinion/view of me.
it sucks that you care about “not hurting her” yet, you hurt me.
we’re like bestfriends, plus we
do things so why cant we be together?
you confuse the
fuck out of me.
i hate how when its just me and you, im all there is and it doesnt even feel like you have a
but when we’re around your friends, you have a girlfriend again.
could make you happy. i could make you whole
care about your girlfriend so much, how can you fuck me?
and its not like this has happened just once, or twice even, but its happened
multiple times and its been happening since like october.
could you just like, be with me, stop fucking with my fucking head,
or leave me alone. please.
youre a really good guy, but of course thats why i cant have you.
maybe if i stopped having
sex with you, you would stop hanging out with me.
and if you dont want anyone to find out, dont do it.
pretty fucking simple to me, specially considering the town we live in, is gossip fucking central. honestly i could care less if people found out, not that im going to tell anyone.
maybe your ashamed of
me, or the idea of us being together is embarassing.
maybe you dont even like me at all.
maybe i should just
not like you anymore, and step the fuck back into reality. maybe you shouldnt cheat on your girlfriend.
maybe i should think about the fact that if it was me you were
cheating on, i would kill you.
and what makes me think that if you “
love” her (yet you cheat, a lot) that you wouldnt do that to me.
why did you have to be the one that helped mend my goddamn broken heart.
because instead of thinking about how much it hurts to be without
david every single second of every single goddamn day, you came along, and i finally started to be okay and get over him, because then, i started thinking about you.
why am i a dumbass.